I'm not talking about the perfume, I'm talking about the obsession I have with my lifestyle of healthy eating and exercise. I'm not ashamed to admit that it has become an absolute obsession, and one of necessity.
If someone asks me then i'll quite happily talk about my exercise regime, what's for dinner, food shopping, cooking, magazine articles, anything until I notice them getting bored and I get the hint that i've went too far yet again! All of the changes I have made and live by these days have consumed me, and I can't see any way around it. If you are reading this and you know me, no doubt you have been subjected to my incessant chatter on the topic at some point. I'm not apologising, just want to say thanks for listening and putting up with me!
If you make a major change in your life, commit to it, set yourself a goal, find that you love it and it makes you feel great, how can you avoid becoming obsessed with it. If it becomes something that you feel passionate about and you want to share it with others so that they can feel the same as you, you can't help but talk about, read about it, think about it ... write about it!
For me, I had to become obsessed with the decision I made, I fully committed myself to trying to change my ways, and everything in my life now revolves around it. At times the obsession went to extremes, spreading myself thin between working, overtime, exercising, researching and studying, I rarely saw my husband which became a bone of contention at times. But I refused to waiver in my resolve to continue on my path. I know that may seem selfish, but for once in my life I had to be selfish and put myself and my health first.
I knew I couldn't put in a half arsed effort if I was going to succeed. It has taken over my life, but I am loving this new life.
It's not just about being focussed on what I'm eating and what exercise I'm doing. The feel good factor, the people, the positive environments, they are all contributing factors.
The people I have met and continue to meet on a daily basis have contributed to my burgeoning relationship with health and fitness. I have made some great friends and met some amazing and inspirational people that have opened my eyes and helped me believe in myself.
I have been exposed to so many new experiences in recent months, things that I would never even have imagined myself contemplating never mind doing. Everything has been so positive and rewarding and I guess that's what fuels the obsession.
A couple of things have happened in the last week or two, just really small and simple things that just continue to inspire me to keep going. Like walking past a window and catching my reflection and having to do a double take because I almost didn't recognise myself, I actually liked what I saw. Or going into a clothes shop and seeing a dress, trying it on and realising that I actually need it in a smaller size (that warranted a few fist pumps and a little celebratory dance in the changing room!). Or my husband grabbing my ass and asking where its gone (too much info?!)
Some people talk about obsession like its a bad thing! Pooh-pooh to that...
Mine is an entirely healthy obsession!
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